Randomness

I am not a science student. Been too lazy too understand it, but have always been intrigued by its findings. Sometimes even yearned the dream of being a science student. Anyways, there is this thing about atoms. Particles or whatever they are. They keep bouncing off each other and with other objects around them. If not disturbed, they have nowhere to go and nowhere to settle. Last few days have been like that. Bereft of all thoughts and feelings. Some thoughts kept connecting and disconnecting to each other like waves on a river. Must have been to do with my grandmother's demise. I never quite understood the melancholy surrounding death. Dont we all know that its inevitable? Whatever be the age. Never heard of atoms stuck to each other. May be there are some things science still cannnot explain.....